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Love Simply Is
I’ve been thinking a lot about a relationship I had. We broke up a year ago. I loved him and still do. Recently, he asked for a friendship. I declined. Part of me thinks that maybe that wasn’t loving. He hurt me, he abandoned me, insert whatever victim script you want here. I’ve played them all. A healer friend suggested that he loves me enough to want a friendship. I love myself enough to let myself heal first.
I wonder why I still feel so connected. I love him in spite of myself. I try to get angry with him and I succeed, but not for long. Lashing out and treating him poorly is something I cannot do. For right now, I love him and even if he’s not with me, giving me what I want, love simply exists. It exists for me too. It’s within me, loving myself through the pain, heartache and suffering. Love simply is even though my ego wants to push it away.
I can’t help but think that he plays an important role in my healing. Whether he becomes my lover again or not, he has provided me with experiences of love and for that, I’ll always be grateful. Love may not be simple, but love is.
To the Person I am becoming.
The person I am becoming is unspeakably grateful to the person I am right now going through the trials and tribulations of this present life. I am feeling that my contortions of growth, much like a chick before it’s actually hatched might actually help me become.. well, fluffy. I was pondering on relationships, romantic ones. I seem to have the other kind pretty well on point. But, romantic, intimate, monogamous, committed relationships with men, seem to give me pause.
Case in point, I was married, (I spelled it “marred”) for nearly 19 years. I married because I didn’t want to be alone and the man who was to become my husband showed me attention. He called, he showed up he made me feel wanted. Except when he got me, which is where everything went south. During the marriage, I thought that it was me and something was wrong with me. In truth, nothing was wrong, it was just my training. I was trained to put my needs ahead of everyone else and grow to be a bitter unhappy person. Except of course, I was happy with most of my life, except my marriage.
I needed to learn what healthy meant as it certainly wasn’t modeled to me.
Now as a single woman, I am practicing new ways of being in a healthy relationship. Except, I keep attracting something else. Good news here, as my friend gently put it, “you are seeing the red flags earlier and acting on them.” Oh goody! Like that helps. It’s true, I walk away much earlier, when before, I would have married the guy. So, there is a victory here. I am grateful to the girl I was. I am grateful for the woman who stares me in the face each morning. Even though, she is really wondering when she’ll experience the good stuff. So, to the person I am, thank you. And to the person I am becoming, Rock on Sister! Enjoy your present. I worked my ass off for it. Ciao Bella!
Candle Magic Ride
My life has been a good one, for the exception that Love and Money had eluded me to the level that I desired. I did workshops and affirmations and while that had worked I still felt that something was blocking my growth. I found candle magic and Coventry Creations. I knew, being intuitive that the 7 steps that Jacki Smith put together would be transformative. Her pick a candle guide gave me the idea to go ahead and begin a new ritual to clear patterns and bring in the desired outcome.
I went to see her in her very cute Candle Wicke Shoppe in Ferndale, Michigan. My best friend Anne in tow, we found the shop and Jacki. Her store was a breath of candle and herbs scents. My favorite line, Motor City Hoo Doo beckoned. I found myself in heaven.
Jacki and I went over my needs and desired outcomes. She custom created a 7 steps for me. Through a series of questions, we both agreed that love and prosperity were entwined together and we could deal with it together. We also discovered that perhaps, my past lives were influencing my current life. I had thought this for a while, and I trust my intuition even though action may not follow quickly.
The first step was to get into my body and get grateful. My heart needed to be healed and opened. She suggested the “Heart” candle from her Blessed Herbal line. I would burn that and the “Spirit Guide” candle to clear past life issues. The body was not just the physical but the energetic body as well.
When I began the burning of the candles, I wanted to have them on my alter. Creating a sacred space to create sacred change is important. Holding my candles and talking to them created an energy that would begin the process. My intentions were heard to have the experiences of an abundance of love and prosperity to be rooted and permanent in my life. I felt anxious and lonely, and I wanted to begin immediately.
Once the candles were burning I felt relieved and saw evidence to their magic. I was productive and methodical in my work. I began feeling grateful for what I had. Being a single woman making my way, became exciting. I felt the energies of my ancestors coming in my home and assisting me.
Each of the candles burned differently. The heart candle took a long time to burn. The Spirit Guide candle burned quickly. I knew that things were changing. I could feel it. Magic is powerful. This is one powerful ride.
Robin Richardson, Your Psychic Girlfriend is an intuitive and spiritual healer and teacher, using the Akashic Records to assist and guide clients to create the life they desire and deserve. www.yourpsychicgirlfriend
